Hello loves,

I'm updating FINALLY.... Shawn and Noodles is supposed to come over today.. My dad just said something interesting. I hope they don't scare them away. I WANT TO BE A Janitor when I grow up... cause then I get to have my own little closet... the only thing I would be yelling at everyone for being such disgusting pigs and make them clean up after themselves, then get fired. whenever you're doing something.. just think to yourself "is this where you want to be when Jesus comes back" hehehe. WWJD I want a mullet.. RIDDLE ME THIS BITCH.. naw just joking.. I bet noone knew that I used to be poor white trash.. Yes sir I was. Did you know that recycleing cans can get you a few bucks.. I'm gonna start picking up cans. I need some stablity in my life.. All these quotes brought to you by JOe Dirt and myself.. anyways most people already know everything that has been happening and if you want to know anything else just give me a call. LOVE ya'll

Kitty

I just can't figure out what it is that I keep doing wrong.. I showed my mom the 99 I got in Hap and she was like that's good ashley.... SHIT this is way last year I didn't care anymore.. I just wanted to test everything and see how they would react.. Then today Lacy is telling me how her mom is treating her like an adult.. FUCK even when I'm some big shot somewhere I'll probably never be treated like an adult.... But I don't care about that I just want to be free..... that word has such a meaning... sigh. It will never be in my vocab though... I have to discontinue my relationship with my dear Rufio and Noodles... It hard to discontinue something when they won't coroperate... I just don't want to ruin Rufio's b-day.... damn that birthday though...... But what can I do guys I'm bond by the laws of childhood... When I went to Noodles house this weekend that basically ended my going to Hannah's house.. Knew it was gonna happen, but I wanted to do it anyways my last bit of freedom. It was great though. Cause I just went to his house and had this big orgy with like a million people... Yay... not I'm soo not like that, but that's the only thing on the mother's mind.... And Hannah had the cd that rufio made me I really need it right now.. GOD damn it.. I have to end friendships and I just can't cause it's too hard... God this is gonna hurt so bad hopefully you guys will read this before I actually have to tell you myself... If people understood it would have been different, but since I can't tell them and explain it's over.... I'm sorry... maybe at a later date but for now.. friends just can't be a factor.. I don't want it to be another thing for people to yell at me about.....

well love you guys

sorry

Ashley

I'm updating my little life line to the outside... Well if you read shawn's journal then you will find out what happened this weekend.. and that's mainly all that happened... The rest of my life is mainly devoted to soccer, band, school, and family. Sigh. I'll live but I just want to say that I wuv NOODLES, RUFIO, CATWOMAN, and my stephy sooo much.. I want a beach... I want the little island that my parents used to take us too... I miss it soo much well that's it for now.. I have to pee so this is all you get.

The kitty of the hour

Kitty

Ok I can pretty much say test AHAHA like that is really going to get me.. yes I will most likely fail it and my wittle buddys are gonna be passing and making better grades then I will... how sad on my part, but they are older then me and should be setting the example.. HA... Examples are funny... so is running all god damn day then having to run on  Friday YAY... not..  I found out today my Asthma is getting a little better, but I still can't breathe everytime I run.. I run anyways and just hope to god I don't stop breatheing.. I'm not gonna show them peoples my weaknesses they don't desire it... DAMNIT I forgot to get drum thingys.. if he yells at me oh well he can kiss my ass... not everyone has money all the freakin time... seriously.. no one cares.. we can use the ones at school.. the school gives  you a budget use it on us.. or ask for more.. band is more important to ft. ball then anything else.. we're more important then the stupid ass cheeraleaders.. no affence to Nina.. cause you guys are actually good this year.. well that's it I'm airing out

well I'm going to go and see if my stephy is k..

your lord and master

KITTY...

I have soo much too do and I don't know if my body will let me... too much of this crap and it's only the first month of schoool.. everythings starting..

ok scrimage.. lost... me tired as hell..played starting full back and then the last bit of the game I was the goalie... that was it.. me and iszzy got a bunch of free food at the game.. I think they felt sorry for us cause we lost or maybe we were just the first ones that asked.. hehehe.. HEY if it's free ashley is going to ask.. I'm a cheap person and I could most certainly spend my money on better things.. LIKE b-day gifts.. wink wink* lol.. wow this is all I got then my ADD lol or so I'm told i have it .. just kicked in and I just realized that I want to go lay down and just sleep.... sigh...

well good day loves.. EVERYONE update you're journals and tell me what's going on...

Your tired and restless

kitty XOXOXOXO

I'm sorry guys today was just a bad day for me.. It's like I just got soo sad out of nowhere and I just don't get why I really had no reason to be sad... or at least the kind of sad that I was... It just gets to me.. OH I we went out to eat and well GOT Mexican lol and so my dad of course ordered a couple of beers and mom had a few drinks of it.. so that means me haveing to drive for the first time on the crowded ft.campbell blvd.. First time for everything and I was driving pertty damn good.. except for my dad and brother being annoying butts in the back of the car.... GOD I just want to put duck tape over both their mouthes.. he was trying to tell me how to drive and I was already speeding a bit and he wanted me to go faster, but I'm not lossing my permit over something that stupid really.. sigh people are just weird when theyy're drunk.. I really feel just completely drained so tomorrow I'm soo skipping soccer cause I really don't think I have the physicall energy to do soccer tomorrow.. and since I'm playing the field more (SOCCER) you perves lol.. Well I am a little bit happier cause tomorrow is a BLUE day and that just is the greatest time for moi.. cause it's all easy elective classes... I was looking over my classes and what I need to graduate and all that other stuff and I could sooo graduate my junior year if it wasn't for that stupid 4th year of English.... STUPID STUPID ENGLISH I hate writeing I'm not good at expressing myself in the form of writing and if I ever do write anything good it's cause I'm a perfectionist and have to be good just cause of my nature.. and it has to be creative just cause it's the KITTY.. did that just sound cocky or what.. well I'm glad my Hannah took up for herself and yes Chelsi I guess I am a bit of a Hippie... Just cause I would rather talk out a situation.. before I go into action.... cause I like to seem smarter then the other person... and if someone ever hit my I most likly wouldn't hit them back.. I would just try and give them and hug and say I was sorry if it was my fault.. if there was a misunderstanding of some sort.. cause if so it wasn't because I was trying to hurt them in anyway... well loves I must be off.. AND I want to know how many of you people have pics of me that I really don't know about.... :/ GLARES at you all the evil eyes.. if you don't tell me I'll burn you with my eyes. :0 well darlings it's off to the bedroom to draw my pathetic art..

THE KITTY

Remember when you're involved with a Virgo, you're involved with a technician, an efficiency expert, and a bargain seeker. When you're involved with a Scorpio, you're involved with a detective, a therapist, a hypnotist and a transformer.

If you can give a Virgo good health and the time to do things right you have a better chance of getting their love and affection. If you can give a Scorpio loyalty, control and deep understanding you have a better chance of getting their love and affection.

Virgo is essentially level- headed with something of a flair for statistics and analysis. Virgo is highly selective and prone to inquiries and examinations. Probably, Scorpio will find Virgo to be practical, methodical and in possession of natural money handling abilities.

Scorpio is a strong individual, an extremely good friend, a formidable enemy, and prone to intense likes and dislikes. Scorpio lives in the world of black and white. Scorpio has little time for superficial people, places or things.

Virgo can be cautious in matters of the heart. Virgo likes to do things for people and tends to be more of a giver than a taker. However, Virgo does need to be thanked. Scorpio prefers deep commitment, deep conversation and deep thoughts. If Scorpio can't tell it like it is, Scorpio prefers to keep quiet. It should be mentioned that Scorpio has quite a few secrets. Forgiveness issues that tend to make personal relationships challenging for Scorpio. People whisper about Scorpio's sex life. They dare to include you in their most passionate fantasies. Love it or hate it, fate holds that must contend with powerful desires.

We could write a whole book about the looks that Scorpio gives. We'd have a chapter on staring and a chapter on x-ray vision. No doubt people say things about Scorpio's eyes: "If looks could kill," "I feel like you're mentally undressing me," etc. Scorpio has proven the ability to hold on. Scorpio's staying power is second to none. Now Scorpio needs to learn to let go. Every day Scorpio needs to find something to sell, give away, throw out or burn. If Scorpio wants to get the most out of life, Scorpio needs to let go of old crap, literally, figuratively, and most of all, psychologically.

Forgiveness issues that tend to make personal relationships challenging for Scorpio. People whisper about Scorpio's sex life. They dare to include you in their most passionate fantasies. Love it or hate it, is the fate that Scorpio must contend with powerful desires.

noodles your the greatest thing since peanut butter... espically those piggyback rides that just cheered me up.. Thank you I must have been on something, cause today just wasn't supposed to be this happy.. yet after school wasn't as happy as during though.. Just people need to leave other people's lives alone.. And you don't have to get my brother to tell my mom things cause guess what EVERYONE I TELL MY MOM EVERYTHING. so just for the future remember that.. for those who fear me that they have to steep sooo low..*sigh*  It just pisses me off that people would actually hurt me like that.. You completely broke my trust and caring for you and you know who you are. You shall never be redeemed.... Damn you for screwing things up for me.. I hope you know that you ruined my life with your petty thoughts and actions.. MOVE ON GET A LIFE and just stop trying for things that you can't have.. so what if someone isn't dateing you anymore.. there might be a reason.. ever thought about it... I'm not going to be mean I'm going to tell you that when ever I pray that I shall pray for you. and just hope that you see what troubles you have caused and just see the errors in your way... but for future reference you might not what to act like this when you go to college or in life or you're just going to be a lonly person. WITH NO FRIENDS. none nada. zip and just so ya know you just lost a friend... sorry but your actions are not the type of things that I want in a friend.... And before you start saying things about other people and their pasts... well I shall find out for myself, just as I did with you.. I didn't listen to what everything else said and I found out for myself what you were really like.. so don't take it upon yourself to tell people how other people or.. Please just live everyone else's lives alone and deal with your own......

I love everyone that has helped in this and even though it has only been like a couple of days but all of you are the bestest friends ever HANNAH SHAWN NOODLES you all are the bestest things since piggyback rides LOL

Love your goddess

KITTY

I don't know anymore.. I'm sorry Shawn, but I must decline your offer for going out with me..... I'm sorry I hope you understand.. Family.... my social... BROTHER'S DEATH.. which I will now burn to death slowly and hope he goes to hell. I'm glad that I'm such a lovely daughter... *sigh*.... darling I'm sorry and I just hope you understand.. maybe if I wasn't so young. Maybe later in life when family isn't a value that's needed, and age doesn't matter.. for now we can just be friends and enjoy this year of highschool.... I'm going to go study or something.. I need to read that stupid AP World History book and look over that algebra 2 book.... Sigh... call me if it's of any importance for I shall be in my room.. cause thanks to my brother I can not have a social life or anything else.

Ash